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Let’s Review: Ilona Andrews

A few years ago I had the pleasure of being in the same room with the two people who together make the author Ilona Andrews.  I was attending KissCon and at the time I really wasn’t that excited to see them.  I mean, it was exciting because they’re authors and are pretty much living my dream, but at that point I hadn’t read anything they had written and didn’t realize the full spectrum of their amazingness (I don’t care if it’s not a word).  I told myself that I would try out one of their books and then stupidly, I never did.

Until now.

After a random reflection about KissCon led me to remember the immense line of fans for Ilona and Gordon, it occurred to me that I had never followed through.  So, thanks to the power of the internet and my local library, I came home with the first three books in the Hidden Legacy series: Burn For Me, White Hot, and Wildfire.

That was yesterday.

These books are freaking fantastic and if I saw Ilona and Gordon at KissCon now, I would be first in their giant line of fans!

The Hidden Legacy series takes place in Houston, Texas, but not in the reality that we are all familiar with.  In this reality the people of earth are magic users and have specific specialties.  They are also ranked based on the strength of their magic, the highest level being that of Prime.

The series follows Nevada Baylor who is a private investigator and what is called a TruthSeeker.  She can tell when someone is lying and  if needed, use her magic to crack that someone’s mind like a walnut so she can pluck out information.  Nevada has spent her entire life hiding her abilities, convinced that if she was open about her powers she would be drafted into the world of interrogation, a fate she would rather avoid.

When Nevada is blackmailed into tracking down the powerful pyrokinetic, Adam Pierce, she is kidnapped by the legendary Connor “Mad” Rogan.  Rogan, one of the most powerful Primes in the world, has his own reasons for seeking Pierce and is willing to do just about anything for information, including working with an unwilling Nevada.  They struggle to work together and resist their growing attraction.

The three books in the series introduce readers to murder plots, otherworldly monsters, magic, and a whole lot of scorching hot passion.  Mad Rogan is a badass of the highest degree and Nevada is just the sassy, take-no-shit, type of woman to keep him in line.  Then there are the engaging supporting characters that I absolutely want to see again (and we will if the next book in the series has anything to say about it).

After devouring these library books I have put them on my “to buy” list because I definitely want to read them again.  They must me mine!

You Rock, Ilona Andrews!  Keep it up!

Let’s Review: Graphic Novels

I’m not a huge fan of graphic novels.

(GASP!)

I know, I’m sorry.  Don’t hate me.  There are certain things I can appreciate about them, even with my overall tendency to wrinkle my nose.  For instance,  many have good story lines, themes that are relatable, likable characters, and the ability to squash a lot of “text” into a bunch of tiny little boxes.   For me, those boxes are what drive me nuts.   I find the illustrations totally distracting and would rather picture things myself.

For distracted students and struggling readers however, graphic novels are amazing.  They are also amazing because classic texts (that trust me, as a lit major I had a hard time wading through) are now being recreated into a graphic novel form.  This approach gets those stories into the hands of people who may have previously passed them up.

In my other not so secret life, I have been devouring stacks of graphic novels to create a literature unit.  I’ve assessed the books for discussion suitability, vocabulary, and possible writing prompts. Surprisingly enough (remember, I’m admittedly not a fan of the graphic novel) I have found quite a few amazing pieces of writing and illustrating.  And because I’m so generous, I will now share my finds with you!

Roller Girl by Victoria Jamison

This is an AWESOME read!  I highly recommend it to just about anyone!  It will make you smile, gasp, laugh, and just feel good.

The main character is Astrid and like most preteen girls, she is all about her BFF.   She is convinced that she and Nicole will be besties forever until the inevitable happens and they are not.  Astrid wants to sign up for roller derby camp and her friend Nicole is all about ballet.  When Astrid discovers that they may not be two peas in a pod anymore she is devastated.

Brave girl that she is, Astrid follows through and goes on her own to learn roller derby.  Unfortunately she didn’t realize that skating, or fitting in, would be so hard.

This book is about friendship, perseverance, and doing your own thing!  I, and my own personal tween at home, thought this book rocked!

Awkward by Svetlana Chmakova

If there is one constant in the lives of teens and preteens it is the feeling of awkwardness.  In this book middle schooler Peppa is really familiar with that feeling.  She is stuck in the middle of a war between the clubs, Art vs Science!  Not only that, she is assigned a science tutor and he happens to be the boy she pushed and irrationally screamed at on the first day of school.  Can we say, awkward?

This book also hits on the themes of friendship, fitting in, and bridging the extra-curricular activity gap.  Just because you have different interests doesn’t mean you can’t be friends!  Another great read! (And it’s the first in a series!)

Low Riders in Space by Cathy Camper

This book is hysterical and punny! The characters are animals and insects who all work at a garage.  Lupe Impala, El Chavo Flapjack, and Elirio Malaria love working on cars and want desperately to open their own garage.  When they have the opportunity to enter in a competition that would give them enough money to open their garage, they of course create a crazy awesome version of their favorite car, the Low Rider!

This is a super fun read with some great themes!

Tomboy by Liz Prince

Tomboy is more appropriate for mature middle schoolers or high schooler, so beware, there are some mature themes and repeated use of the F-word!  Having said that, it is awesome!

This book is a graphic memoir about a girl who just wanted to be herself and be accepted.  That is a theme that resonates with everyone!  Liz was not the typical girl.  At least that’s what she was made to believe. She wanted to play with action figures, watch baseball, and wouldn’t be caught dead in a dress.  So started her battle of identity.  She found that boy’s didn’t want to hang out with her because she was a girl, and girls didn’t want to hang out because she wanted to do “boy stuff.”

The book is funny, sarcastic, and incredibly REAL.  Starting at birth, Liz Prince recounts her life and her battle to be accepted and in doing so blow a raspberry at gender roles.

So, the moral of my story here: even if you’re not a fan of graphic novels there are some great ones out there.  Check them out!

 

 

 

 

Let’s Review: Road to Peace

Long hair, leather, motorcycle boots… Yes, please!

As you can tell, I am a fan of bikers, and Road to Peace by Piper Davenport is full of them.  They are rough, growly, sexy, and absolutely good guys, which makes them the perfect alpha male matches for the spunky women they fall for.

Road To Peace is about Hatch who is a sexy man-bunned mechanic and member of the Dogs of Fire motorcycle club.  When A gorgeous woman’s car breaks down he is also the one who comes to her rescue.

Widowed mother Maisie is grateful to the good looking giant for fixing her car.  She’s so grateful she invites him to dinner and struggles to keep herself from having him naked in her bed for dessert.  Convinced she’s not only betraying her dead husband, but also setting a bad example for her daughter, Maisie gives him the brush off.

When someone cuts her brake lines and her car careens down a hill, Maisie’s daughter calls Hatch to ride to their rescue.  Together, Maisie and Hatch must discover who tried to murder Maisie as well as shake off annoying relatives and in the meantime try not to get scorched by all the electricity sparking between them.

This book is sexy and fun and I can’t wait to read about the rest of the Dogs of Fire.  The story line moved pretty quickly and I loved reading about all of the hotness that is Hatch.  I also loved the way he put himself between Maisie and anything that threatened her, including her friends.

Maisie is a spitfire that made me laugh out loud.  It is hilarious that she runs a company that makes sex toys, if not a tiny bit out of character.  She seems a bit sheltered to have that sort of job, and the fact that her late husband was the brains behind the products but never tested them out  with Maisie made me suspicious of him.  I spent a good portion of the book waiting to find out something unsavory about him, and then preparing to be mad on Maisie’s behalf.

Trigger warning!  Mental illness also plays a large role in the story line, so if you are uncomfortable with that I would say to steer clear.  One of the characters suffers from Bipolar Disorder and I feel like Davenport handles the idea of mental illness with finesse.  It fits seamlessly into the story line and helps show the characters’ true colors, Maisie’s especially.

All in all this was a great read.  The  characters are engaging and the story line has some surprising twists and turns. Piper Davenport’s writing is slick and makes reading effortless.  If you’re a fan of Kristen Ashley’s Chaos Series you definitely need to meet Hatch and the rest of the Dogs of Fire, since it totally feels like they could exist in the same universe.

Well done, Piper Davenport!  You’ve earned a fan!

 

Let’s Review: Cheyenne McCray

I love books about cowboys and Playing With You, a Riding Tall novel, has cowboys in spades.  It also has all of the other elements I enjoy in a good romance.  There are sexy men (did I mention they are cowboys?!?), a curvy heroine, scrumptious sweets, and the plot twist to end all plot twists.

Riki is a baker who has an incredible crush on Garret, one of her sexy, Stetson wearing patrons. When she is set up on a blind date by the town busy body, imagine her shock and surprise when she finds Garret on her doorstep.  Sparks fly between them and things heat to smoking.

Like all good characters, Garret and Ricki have flaws that seem determined to keep them apart.  Garret’s past haunts him and Ricki is struggling to recover from a divorce.  When a trusted friend stops hiding their crazy, Garret and Ricki will need to fight to save each other…and an adorable pooch.

This was a short and sweet story.  I loved that Ricki is a size fourteen and I love even more that sexy Garret appreciates her curves (round girls need love too!).  I also love the premise of her having the crush and then that idea being paired with a blind date.  It reminded me a little of The Curve Ball by JS Scott (love that one too!). The stalkerish twist was a welcome surprise and it definitely kept me engaged, though I would have liked things to be a little more vague so I could feel the full shock at the end.

I don’t like to criticize (and I usually try not to), but the only thing that didn’t sit quite right with me was the author’s handling of Riki’s mental health issues.  At the beginning of the story Ricki talks about suffering from depression.  I love that the author put that out there!  It is a real thing and I feel like it is mostly ignored by people who haven’t experienced it.  The thing that bothered me was at the end, Ricki was so happy with her relationship with Garret that she was able to go off of her anti-depressants and I don’t feel like that is very realistic.  Everyone has experienced some depression at one time or another in their lives, but some people have a chemical imbalance that needs to be corrected with medication.  I suffer from depression and anxiety and I suffer from them even when it seems that everything is going right in my life.  It bothers me that the story made it sound as if all Ricki needed was a good man and to find love and then her issues would be resolved. It’s not true.  Love and a good man are great, but they don’t fix mental  illness.

On a much lighter note, this was a very fun read.  I love the characters and enjoyed all of the side characters that were introduced too.  I would definitely read others in the series!

Well done, Cheyenne McCray!

Knight Sebring VS The Fifty Shades

I was a literature major in college (surprise, surprise), and by the end of my tenure there I could write an essay about anything.  It’s been a lot of years since I’ve had to, but every once in a while I will read or watch something that just begs me to whip out my keyboard and dive into analysis.  Knight by Kristen Ashley, is one of those books.

Like any good student doing a close read, I have read the book several (dozen 😉 times and on each read I am struck anew by the similarities to Fifty Shades of Grey by E.L. James.  Now don’t get me wrong, I am absolutely NOT saying that there has been any plagiarism on anyone’s part, just that there are some striking similarities and I love to make these type of comparisons (I just usually only do it in my head).

The first similarity is that both books are written in the first person.  This is somewhat innocuous since Kristen Ashley has a tendency to write exclusively in the first person, unless she is writing from the man’s perspective.  E.L. James also used first person narration through all of the books in the Fifty Shades trilogy, though I don’t believe she jumped to Christian’s point of view until the fourth book, Grey.

Another thing the books have in common is the names of the heroines.  Anastasia Steele is the main character in The Fifty Shades Trilogy, while Anya Gage is the star of Knight.  The names sound similar, especially since Anastasia shortens her name to Ana, and both have Russian origins.  In fact, in Knight, Anya goes so far as to explain that her name belonged to her Russian grandmother.

I also had a little giggle over the fact that Anya’s last name is Gage and Anastasia’s last name is Steele.  Steel, as a metal, has its thickness measured in gauges (also spelled gage).  This is an amusing relationship because in my opinion, Anya Gage is the “thicker” of the two characters.  I feel like Anastasia Steele is just kind of floating through her life wherever the current takes her and the fact that it took her to Christian Grey was fortuitous (depending on how you look at it).  Yes, there is some argument when Christian tried to interfere in her life, like with the car and eventually with buying the company where she eventually works, but I feel like Anastasia’s arguments are always halfhearted at best and she spends the books being swept away by Christian.

On the other hand, Anya Gage is actively swimming against that current trying to make her life better and she doesn’t need a man to help her accomplish those goals.  In fact, when Knight tries to give her a ride home she turns him down.  He sends her an expensive cell phone; she gives it back.  There are other examples, but they all point to the fact that Anya is not just capable of being independent, she demands it.  We see it when Knight tries to give her the keys to her spa, and Anya not only telks him she wouldn’t accept, but that she already has $20,000 saved to start the business herself.  Again, when Anya moves in with Knight she is uncomfortable with the idea of his “charity” and says she would pay a portion of the mortgage and all of her expenses, then when she is rebuffed she wants him to think about what she can do to “contribute to their home.”

Anya is not content to just ride the river and let Knight steer.  She wants to swim with him as an equal.  This idea is represented in the book by Anya’s nightmare.  In her first dream about Knight, she is being carried down a raging river and Knight leaps into the water with her.  He didn’t try to save her, and I think that’s an important distinction.  He just wraps himself around her and they go over the waterfall together.

Another detail that gave me a giggle is the fact that in Fifty Shades of Grey, Christian’s last name is Grey.  In Knight, all the rooms in Knight’s condo are decorated in various shades of black and grey.  The use of the color grey could symbolize a state of limbo.  Neither of them are the stereotypical hero or white knight that are expected in romance novels, though neither are they villains.  Each of them have both heroic and villainous qualities, which puts them firmly in an area of grey, neither white nor black.  Each of them also have an affinity to the color red.  In Fifty Shades, Christian has his Red Room, where he goes for release and to set free the part of himself he keeps hidden.  For Knight, red is his favorite color and it comes into his everyday existence in the wall of his office, a place where he exercises control over his empire.  It also shows up in his private life when Anya moves in with him.  She replaces much of his black and grey with red accents, representing the way she has added passion and warmth to his life, perhaps?

The next similarity is the backgrounds of the characters.  Both Anya and Anastasia are students.  Anya is twenty-eight and attending beauty school while also essentially working two jobs and saving to start her own business, while Anastasia is the quintessential college student, early twenties, sharing space with a friend.  I suppose the age difference could explain the character depth or lack thereof.  Anya is a little older and has had to make it on her own since she was eighteen (really before), whereas Anastasia is how she appears, an innocent virgin fumbling through school and starting her life and career.

Now let’s talk about Christian and Knight.  Both men had rough beginnings.  Both Christian and Knight were “raised” by drug addict prostitutes, and both men rose above their painful childhoods to become successful businessmen.  Both men also allowed those pasts to influence them, though in different ways.

Christian’s childhood influenced both his career and his sexuality.  He experienced poverty as a child and in business made it his mission to help others.  He also experienced profound abuse and it appears that his way of coping is through the use of BDSM and his Red Room of pain.  He controls not only his own pain and pleasure, but also the pain and pleasure of the women he is with.  This may be a reaction to not having any control as a child.

Knight also likes control and it seeps into every aspect of his life.  He took the memories of life with his prostitute mother and made it his mission to help other women who found themselves in a similar situation.  He states at one point that he is not a benefactor, set to save women from their circumstances.  Instead, he made a business where he can keep those women safe while they do what they feel they have to do.  In a way, that is giving them back the control over their own destiny.  He makes sure those women have a say in who they allow in their beds, that the women are not manipulated with threats or drugs, and that any many who ignores those rules is taught a painful lesson.

This control also extends to the bedroom.  Knight likes to be in charge, but with Christian you get the feeling that he is manipulating Anastasia and her responses, a puppeteer pulling her strings.  With Knight it feels like he is just in command.  He likes things how he likes them, but he will take into consideration Anya’s opinions and desires and is willing to compromise.  He is looking for a relationship, not just sex, and you get that impression right from the very beginning.

Another thing the books share is a high level of eroticism.  Each novel contains incredibly explicit sex scenes that make you want to fan your face they are so hot!  Knight, however is not all about the sex.  It’s there, it’s important, and it’s sexy as hell, but that it not the main theme of the book.  I didn’t feel that way with Fifty Shades of Grey.  I felt like Fifty Shades was all about the sex and to a certain extent the debauchery of an innocent.  In Knight, Anya was not a virgin by any means.  She’d had relationships in the past and the book was more about the development of her relationship with Knight of which sex was a natural part.  It was not about her seduction, because she didn’t need to be seduced.

Fifty Shades of Grey and Knight, though very different stories, have similar themes and are both excellent reads.  I will say that if I had to choose between Christian Grey and Knight Sebring, I would be Knight Sebring all the way!  Knight has a confidence and decisiveness that I feel Christian Grey lacks.  Knight makes you want to give up control and lets you know that he will absolutely take care of you when you do.  I feel like in Fifty Shades, Christian Grey is actually the one who needs to relinquish control.  Christian, down deep, is a frightened little boy and it seems at times that he and Anastasia are the blind leading the blind.  Neither knows what they really want or how to get it.  So, for me, I would have to choose Knight!

 

 

Lying Dormant

I’ve been on a journey for as long as I can remember.  Some days I race forward, propelled by goals, glee, and responsibility.  Other days I struggle to keep my eyes and mind focused on anything but the battle raging in my brain.   The monsters of fear and doubt hunker down in the dark just waiting to sit on my lungs and stop my breath, or use their razor sharp claws to score through my brain, and my heart, and send all logic out the window.

That is my battle with depression and anxiety.  Much of the time I can manage.  I read an article talking about people with “high functioning” anxiety and/or depression and I suppose most days that’s me.  I can usually slog through, keep going, and shove it away.  It’s always lurking there though.  Always.

My mom has end stage cancer.  I am essentially sitting here watching her die, but my depression doesn’t even see that.  Weird, huh?  My anxiety doesn’t see it either.

Instead my mind is spinning and my stomach churning because my kids might be getting too much screen time, or I’m suddenly remembering every decision I’ve ever made in my life that was the wrong one, and knowing I’m just useless as a wife, mother, and employee.  The depression is  beating against my skull, taking turns with my anxiety which is whispering that if I don’t keep my kids locked in a bubble I will lose them, or that I’m on the verge of losing my job, and that my marriage is going to hell.

I can feel it coming on, that hysterical crying followed by the desire to just fold myself into a dark corner and never come out.  It would be better, the monsters whisper.  If you aren’t here, if you aren’t engaged then there are no wrong choices, there is no pain or worry from things you can’t control.

Instead I shove it away.  I get up, go to work, take care of my kids, mom, spouse, all the responsibilities that won’t wait for me while I break down.  All the people I don’t want to burden when I can’t cope.

”I’m tired of everything giving you anxiety.”

That’s what I get when I share.

You don’t think I’m tired of it?  Do you think I want to live like this?  I don’t.  I spend each day anxious about my anxiety and depressed about my depression.

By now I’ve heard it all:  ”Just don’t think about it!  There is no reason for you to be sad.  There’s no reason to worry.  Have you seen a doctor, a psychologist?  Try antidepressants.  Have you changed your diet?  You need to exercise more.  Just think positive.  Start going to church and reading the Bible.”  And on and on.

I want to ask, “Do you  hear yourselves?”  Of course I’ve tried them, all of them, many times.  But nothing is the end all be all when it comes to depression and anxiety.  Certainly things can help, but there is no cure, not that I’ve found.

So I keep fighting those demons, and people don’t want to hear about them, so the battle is silent.  I keep slugging through because to stop is to let everyone down.

But honestly, most days I just want to stop.

 

Let’s Review: Slow Burn

I’m definitely one who loves a good series.  I especially love it when it comes from Kristen Ashley.

The release of her new book Slow Burn is part of her Moonlight and Motor Oil series (though, is it a series if it is only two books?  Should we call it s duo instead?) and follows the story of Toby and Addy.  Toby Gamble, brother of Johnny Gamble who we met in The Hook Up, is a rough and tumble hottie who has a wealth of mystery around him.  Toby has done it all, seen it all, and is still on the look out for his next adventure.  Little did he know, her name would be Addie Forrester.

Addie Forrester has had her share of trouble but after moving in with her sister she was looking forward to things calming down.  Enter Talon  McHotterson, a.k.a. Tobias Gamble, the very antithesis of calm.  She knew she should avoid him and especially the red hot desire she felt every time he was near, but that wasn’t easy when his brother was marrying her sister.

On top of avoiding Toby’s sexy bearded smolder, Addie is also trying to adjust to life as a single parent.  Crippling daycare costs, a low paying job, and a mortgage payment are taking their toll, but she’s Addie Forrester, and the Forrester girls have always known how to make do.  When Toby decides to step in to help, Addie is torn between necessity, pride, and flat out desire.

I love, love, love this book.  It is laugh out loud funny, incredibly sweet, and socks it right to your heart in the end.

Pick up the Moonlight and Motor Oil series and prepare to be instantly addicted!

Well done Kristen Ashley!

You’ve hit another one out of the park!